Track 15 - 失去了缘分的两个人，即使在同一个城市里，也不太容易碰到

1. 莎士比亚说: 再好的东西都有失去的一天。再深的记忆也有淡忘的一天。再爱的人，也有远走的一天。再美的梦也有苏醒的一天。

2. 安妮宝贝说: 不相信爱情。却相信世界的某处有一个人。一直等在那里。只是不知道会何时何地出现。总是快乐而孤独的等着他。也许这样就可以过了一生。

3. 几米说: 当你喜欢我的时候，我不喜欢你,当你爱上我的时候，我喜欢上你, 当你离开我的时候，我却爱上你,是你走得太快，还是我跟不上你的脚步, 我们错过了诺亚方舟,错过了泰坦尼克号,错过了一切的惊险与不惊险,我们还要继续错过……

4. 雪小禅说: 我以为终有一天，我会彻底将爱情忘记，将你忘记，可是，忽然有一天，我听到了一首旧歌，我的眼泪就下来了，因为这首歌，我们一起听过。

5. 张小娴说: 爱，从来就是一件千回百转的事。不曾被离弃，不曾受伤害，怎懂得爱人？

6. 亦舒说: 无论怎么样，一个人借故堕落总是不值得原谅的，越是没有人爱，越要爱自己。

7. 郭敬明说: 有些人会一直刻在记忆里的，即使忘记了他的声音，忘记了他的笑容，忘记了他的脸，但是每当想起他时的那种感受，是永远都不会改变的。

8. 几米说: 人不是鱼，怎会了解鱼的忧愁；鱼不是鸟，怎会了解鸟的快乐；鸟不是人，怎会了解人的荒唐；人不是鸟，怎会了解鸟的自由；鸟不是鱼，怎会了解鱼的深沉；鱼不是人，怎会了解人的幼稚；你不是我，怎会了解我……

9. 莎士比亚说: 该放弃的决不挽留。该珍惜的决不放手，分手后不可以做朋友，因为彼此伤害过！也不可以做敌人，因为彼此深爱过!

10. 安妮宝贝说: 感情有时候只是一个人的事情。和任何人无关。爱，或者不爱，只能自行了断。

  

如果，有醒不了的梦，我一定去做。 

如果，有走不完的路，我一定去走。 

如果，有变不了的爱，我一定去求。 

如果，如果什么都没有，那就让我回到宿命的泥土！

这些年的美好，都是善意的谎言，我带着最美丽的那部分，化作尘埃！ 

把生活的扉页，撕下那页最重最钟爱的，装进一个抽屉里，自己一遍又一遍的读。把自己最后也装进去，收拾起一切灿烂的结束。

把微笑还给昨天，把孤单留给自己。
　　 

P/S: 爱不过就像一口烟圈，烟散了回到从前…… 

Track 14 - 我是CIPAI仔

还记得N年前的我，是个不好动，不好玩，天天躲在家，看戏，睡觉，读书，做功课的自闭儿。。。
那时，朋友们都听着流行的音乐，看着流行花园，只有我，都不知吧时间花在哪。。。
自闭生活就将到了我的初中四，那时，是我姐第一次带我去CLUB。。。
也许那里能舒缓我的情绪，让我感受什么叫做出街，什么叫做释放。。。哈哈
之后，我就很喜欢出去。。。
尤其是夜晚，因为宁静的夜晚，让人有种被她吸引的力量，让我放松，感受那宁静的气氛。。。
我时常都会约朋友出去，吹水，喝茶，每个人都以为我是个好动的，好谈的。。。
但现在，我有开始有点回到N年前的感觉了。。。
我喜欢一个人，喜欢宁静，当然，在外面我不会把这些表现出来，所以说，我自己都不了解自己。。。
 所以说呢。。。我还是喜欢宁静，吵闹，只是另外一面的我。。。=）

Track 13 - Money Face?

Po- Po- Po- Po- Poker face Po- Poker face...
LOL~ familiar with this song that sang by Lady Gaga?
Then how about Money Face?
Am I really a person that like money till can sacrifice everything in my life?
Money - need it to purchase basic necessities...
Money - make you feel proud of having it...
Money - can solve most of the troubles that you faced...
Is money really that important in my life? Yes, it is.
Because I need money to make my life better and to my family because daddy is old already and it's time for him to rest.
However, I am not those type people who will sacrifice my sex, myself for the money.
Money is my need but I'm not it's slave. =)

SO, I AM NOT A MONEY FACE!!!!

Track 12 - Friday Outing

Busy Busy whole whole day~ ~ ~
Outing Outing till night end~ ~ ~
Today schedule :-
1) Bake With Yen with Steven and Mayxim - buy some pastry stuffs
2) Taiwan cafe Puchong - Beef noodles here actually not bad but the portion should be bigger =P
3) Steven's house - doing some stuffs XD
4) Going to Orphanage - a lot of kids, I remember you!!! Marcus, David and little chong chong~ XD
5) Bangsar Village - Waiting friend to finish their site check up
6) Nirvana Banan Leaf - My DINNER here!!! Damn Hungry and I wonder how I finished up one whole BIG BIG portion of RICE with LOT OF Curry Gravy~ LOL

and finally back to my home sweet home in Mentari~
Tiring and coughing~
it's time to sleep~ LOL~

Track 11 - Iphone4? Evo4? or Fall?

I was thinking which phone should I buy?
Iphone 4? good function, good gaming, good quality (may be) and good in etcetera~
Iphone 4 for me is a good entertainment and gaming phone, since i like to play games and do some crazy stupid things~
HTC Evo 4? I like it, i love it, because i like Android~ HTC Desire was become one of my considerations before, but now It us out because of Evo 4.
However, M'sia will not import HTC EVO 4. Although I can ask my friend from US buy for me, it is hard to find the technician to repair this SMART PHONE when there were some stupid problems occur.
So, Should i purchase Iphone 4? *sigh

Fall~ Fall down or fall in love?
How if i say that i fall for someone? =)

Track 10 - Boring Midnight . Boring Monday

sigh... sunday midnight or so call monday early morning was a boring day for me~
For me, i prefer to have a day out at night rather than afternoon...
Night, it is so beautiful, silent, cold and mysterious~
Afternoon, for me, it is the time that i should take a small nap~ =)
I believe that most of the teenagers prefer to have an outing at night rather than afternoon.
Night, it's time for clubbing, for "yam cha", for going to cinema, for walking at the sea side, for enjoying a nice scene at hill side . . .

Nuit, j'aime ca~

Track 9 - Socialization?

I think there were a lot of people think that i am a very good in social, easily to talk with others and like to bother every little things that surrounded me.
Ya... I am...
I'm good in social when i am really in happy mood.
I'm easily to talk with others when i am really want to share everything to them.
I like to bother every little things that surrounded me because i want to pretend that i'm happy and act like crazy in order to forget those miserable things.
Sometimes, you will see me smile, but, you will never know that whether it is my true smile or just a smile to hide my real feeling.
Indeed, i'm not really a good person to talk with, not good in social and even, i prefer to be alone sometimes.
Alone in the house, doing everything that i like, that's me when i'm really down.
I don't like to share my bad case with others because it's weaken my personality.
Someone said, sharing is caring, caring is loving.
But, it's hard to find that so call loving.
Like to social? I think i'm not~ =)

Track 8 - 分离的方向

如果有一天，你身边的每个人都要各奔东西，你会怎样？
也许伤心是必然的，但是至少也要联络。
发生在我身上的一个事件，就是上次我的好友一声不讲，就飞到外地去读书了。
起初，我还以为他骗我。谁知道，当我看到他在外地拍的照片时才知道是真的。
我问他，为何不跟我说？至少我也可以送你去机场。
当时，他顿了一阵子。。。然后就开始别的话题。
也许，离别是一个伤心的场合。
也许，朋友只是他的一个负累。
从那天一后，我们就少联络了。。。
朋友，需要做到这样吗？
他有他的方向，但至少也可以和身边的人分享。
多一份朋友的支持，就多了一份信心。
希望能可以再和他好好的谈天，从温当初在一起的美好时光。

方向。。。我这个人，到现在，完全没有方向！
我只希望永远可以像现况一样，
但时间总会走，人也要向新的方向走。
时间不会等人，过去的只能好好珍惜。

我真的已经迷失方向了。。。

Track 7 - Happy Sharing

Back to penang on Thursday midnight with my friend~
First time back on midnight and the surrounding were damn dark and creepy~
But, i enjoy the journey back to Penang...
At Penang, i can enjoy a lot of nice foods with cheaper price...
At my house, i can enjoy every single foods that cooked by my mum...
At the paddy field nearby my house, i can riding motorcycle, cycling and jogging...
And most importantly, at my hometown, my beloved penang, i can run out from the busy and stressful life in KL...
I like penang so much~

nice cendol stall...

the cendol~

the laksa stall~

 

the asam laksa!!!

 

and the siam laksa!!!

Besides that, i ate the Tuo Pan, Mee sua Kor, Fried little prawn, chee cheong Fun, Char Koay Teow, Ice Kacang and Tao Kua-Chien...

Hope 2mr before i go to KL, I can eat Curry Mee and Hokkien Mee (prawn mee) XD
I want EAT!!!!!

Track 6 - Memories

Few days ago, i heard from my friend that he need to back to hometown due to the death of his grandma.
It makes me think of the death of my grandpa - when i was Standard Six.
It has been 10 years pass.
I still remember, the day before his death, I has bought a Charizard (pokemon) toy model.
That time, Grandpa was still lie down on his bed, and my uncle and my mum were take care of him.
It has been few months grandpa was unable to move as usual due to the some kind of disease that will be faced by all the old people （老人病）.
I still remember, every morning, he will go to the coffee shop and have a drink and chatting with his friends.
Sometimes, he will go to travel to Hat Yai and bought me a lot of souvenirs.
He bought me foods and drinks, take care of me when i get bullied by my cousin, sent the foods to my school to me (but that time i felt shame and asked him to back home quickly, how bad was i).
The day before his death, my mum ask me to massage my grandpa but i refused because i was lazy.
Thinking why grandpa was so annoying; always want me to give him a massage.
But the next day, when i knew that he is dead, my tears drop.
Yes, i sad. I cried, non stop. I am such a bad grandson.
He was taking care of me, protecting me and allowing me to do whatever i like.
But, what he get from me, IS NOTHING...
I was bad, unfilial grandson. Not taking care of him, lazy to face him and feel shame to have such grandpa.
I felt like slapping myself while thinking of my personality when i was Standard Six.
Time flies, but memories still on my mind.
Just hoped that Grandpa can meet my lovely grandma in the paradise and stay happy ever after.
I miss you, grandpa.

Track 5 - I Miss You

With a sudden nudge and you message me...
Asking life asking study and relationship...
I'm answered: Single since not adorable~
You said: I miss the moment stay with you~
I don't know what to answer - - - speechless - - -
You have your better life over there
I have my miserable life here
May be without you, there is no happiness for me
But without me, you still can get your happiness easily
Feeling is a very weird physical reaction
Loving, Caring, Hating, Lying, Cheating and Fighting
Joy and Fun, Quarrel and Run, have been experienced by us
May be I like you, May be I Confuse~
But conclusion is still the one and never changed~
There will no any happiness between me and you-

Mon cheri, I miss you~

Track 4 - II est cinq heures du matin

Maintenant, c'est cinq heures du matin.
Mais, je n'ai pas dormi a cause de je vais manger au cafe de Pandan Indah.
C'est beaucoup d'amusement aujourd'hui.
Mon amie veux aller pour "Yam Cha" parce que elle a faim bien que c'est une heure du matin.
D'abord, nous voulons aller a Jaya One pour "yam cha" mais tous les cafes a Jaya One a ferme.
Donc, nous allons a Old Town Cafe a Sri Petaling.
Petait nous sommes malchance, Le Old Town Cafe a ferme aussi. Quelle dommage!
Apres, nous decidons aller a Bukit Bintang mais nous ne savons pas quelle place nous voulons aller.
Puis, nous allons a Old Town Cafe Cheras parce que II a ouvert pour 24 heures.
Tristement, nous ne savons pas la rue y aller. Et, je conduis jusqu a Dolphin Cafe a Pandan Indah.
Finalement, nous avons notre soupers là. 
Aujourd'hui, c'est le jour malchance!

Track 3 - Baby Baby One More Time

Nothing? Nothing? Nothing?
Today, i have viewed my friend's blog, contents about his colleague's full month baby.
For me, i really like baby. They are cute, adorable and chubby.
Nice to hug, nice to smell and nice to entertain.
Everyone have their own memories when they were babies.
Nothing much to think, Nothing much to care and Nothing much to worry.
Eat, Sleep, Drink~ Smile, Cry, Play~ Do whatever they like.
Somehow, i wish i can be a baby forever.
No need to grow up, No need to think a lot, No need to confuse for future.
Simply live, Simply crawl, Simply lie down.
Can i just back to the past? To be a baby?
Impossible Impossible~
Can I? Be a baby baby one more time?

Track 2 - 爱的距离

有个平凡的小男孩从小就很肥。他爱吃饱睡，睡饱吃。在学校，因为他那肥胖的身材而有了个可爱的花名-小叮当。但他却不在意，他还是一样过着他的生活。
 

时间快快的过去了，他也变得越来越胖。就在这个时候，他的学校来了一名美丽的女转校生。小男孩第 一眼就爱上了这一名女转校生，这可谓是一见钟情啊！也许这是上天的安排，那小女孩就被安排坐在小男孩的旁边。小男孩当然非常高兴，他想这应该就是他们俩有 缘分。他们就在那天变成了无话不说的好朋友，成为了学校里人人嫉妒的对象。

 

小男孩为了那小女孩，他开始减肥。就只在那短短的一个月里，他从肥胖的七十多公斤减到五十五公斤 的小帅哥，简直就像是一个奇迹。当他改变的时候，很多同学都对他刮目相看。肥胖的同学就问他如何减肥，那些较平凡的同学就问他如何变得那么好看。在这一瞬 间，他成为了学校人人讨论的对象。小女孩也为他感到开心，因为她知道小男孩是为她而改变的。但她也知道她只可以和小男孩做好朋友，没可能会变成恋人。

 

在五月份的那一天，小男孩准备向那小女孩告白。但他偏偏想不到，告白的那天就是他沮丧的那天。就 在小男孩开开心心进班的那一刻，小女孩告诉小男孩她已有暗恋的对象而且她暗恋的对象在昨晚已向小女孩告白，而小女孩当然也就接受了。小女孩想把这喜悦跟小 男孩分享，但她却不知道这就等于伤害小男孩的心。小男孩只有默默的祝福小女孩。

 

刚开始的时候，小女孩和她男友过得很好。这都被看在校男孩的眼里，所以他决定不再追求小女孩。在 这时，小男孩接受了另一女孩，他们在一起也过得很开心。也许说日久见人心，小女孩发现她男友天天只会赌博吸烟，而且有时还打骂她，甚至还开始向小女孩要 钱。小女孩就找小男孩诉苦，而小男孩安慰她不要再为那男的伤心，该快快向那男的分手。

 

小女孩决定分手后，她也和小男孩过着像以前的生活。她开始发现小男孩的好。她怪自己为何当初没发现这么好的伴侣，还选择了一个无恶不做的大坏蛋。她也爱上了小男孩，但小男孩不能接受她了，因为小男孩已有了个对他很好的女友，他不想辜负他女友对他的爱。

 

有一种爱叫做放手，有一种爱叫做执着，爱不爱当然都会令人痛苦，所以就只能好好的爱对方。世界上最远的距离不是南极和北极，而是我在你面前，你却不知道我爱你。

Track 1 - Confusing.Struggling.Betraying

What to do? What to do?

Confuse for your future? Struggling to achieve better?

Betraying someone to get your own objectives? 

Confuse? Because of don't know what you want? Because of haven't get matured? Because of facing failure? Because of lazy to figure out? Because of influenced by someone else?

Struggle? Tends to get the better life? Tends to get more than now? Tends to conquer the whole things? Tends to climbing up high? Tends to pushing someone down?

Betray? Lack of trustworthy? Lack of concrete relationship? Lack of mutual communication:? Lack of sense of cooperation? Lack of thinking for each others?

When facing these three problems, try to ask yourself, "Should you blame others or blame yourself?"
For me, I still don't know. But i know that, I HATE THESE !